I Tried to warn you. Really, this won't be fun.
I am going through a very difficult time in my life. I really don't have many people to talk to, so I'm going to talk to me. Here.
There is a dark shadow, a heavy weight on my shoulders. I am doing what I need to, but I don't really know why. The world is dark, painful. I have much to do. I have to change everything about my life. Everything, Even the tiniest bits. I get to keep my name and my skill, and nothing else.
There is much growing to do. There is much pain, a lot of damage to heal, and some fat to excise. There is negative to remove from my life. I'd rather not, but it seems that I have to.
I will do what I have to, for me, because I need to, for me.
I'm tired of rejection, especially from those who claim to be on my side. Of giving all, and getting rejected and abused. I'm tired of losing.
I will win. I will move on, I will become better than what I was.
I just don't know why I should bother.
